Fed up with some women's attitude

This is ridiculous!

Today over dim sum , I downloaded my fruastration about C having an affair to my girlfriends. 3 of them were in shock, but T was like, "It's very common ah this kind of things."

P shot back at her and said "You cannot say it's common, what you are saying is that we can condone such things? These things cannot be condoned!"

During the conversation, T kept on saying 2 more times "These things are very common" in a my-goodness-why-are-you-so-shock-it happens-all-the-time tone.

I couldn't take it anymore and I shot back " You ah, T, the way you say it like it should happen and everybody is doing it so it's normal and acceptable! This is a wrong way of thinking you know?!!"

Silence ensures an my girlfriends told me much later she something along the line of different people have different opinions which I really did not hear at all.

P later on brought up the subject again without T around and said yes she was also quite cheesed off with T. N said she just didn't want to get between us and ate her dim sum. C reminded us of the fact T's father cheated before. And maybe that's why she thinks this way.

Seriously, so what?

All the more it means T must stand up for herself. Cannot let the same mistake happen to her and guard her happiness carefully. T once told me her life is "like that" aka never be really happy and resigned to the fact that she will meet bad men and be with them because her parents are like that and she never would be deserving of anything good either.

Crap, bullshit.

Deserving or not is what you make of yourself and your life.

You are only sad when you allow yourself to be feel that way.
You are only unhappy when you allow things to happen to you if you relinquished all control of yourself.
You suffer when you allow others to bully you.
Your selfworth is gone when you think you can never do any better than others or your present situation.
You deceive yourself that you are happy by making excuses for everything bad happening around you.

T is ridiculous up to a point where she is crossing the line from being stupid to pure dumbass reasoning.

T is a close friend of mine but she keeps meeting men of weird characteristics with tonnes of emotional baggage. Sometimes I am wondering if she is craving for trouble?

My dear sisters of the world I wish you'll be able to stand up for yourself and be strong for whatever reasons. Don't take life as it cruises along. Grab it and stear it in the direction you WANT to go instead.

Whatever don't kill you makes you stronger!

Losing faith in the human race

Just found out last night that C and J are having an affair. C is already married with 3 kids and a lovely wife. MY GOODNESS! What's wrong with them?

I am so disgusted with the both of them. C is such a hypocrite. "Oh I am a family man. blahblahblah" which he always sprouts. Oh please cut me the crap! Talk is cheap.

Why am I so affected? Why? Because I know the wife and I consider myself friends with her. In my opinion, I find her to be a truly fine woman who is so gentle compared to me and a great wife and mother of 3 gorgeous children.

I used to think that C is such a charming man and combined with the fact that he looks good for his age (late 30's), have a certain style about him and he loves his family which makes me green with envy and wants a family of my own. And C, you stupid stupid man, allowing this to happen and destroying a family? And you know what, you shit where you eat? Thats' like so plain STUPID! The whole industry is so going to find out.

Now? God, my goodness! SCUM? BASTARD? What's his problem? Your wife have been with you for years and years and you go and get yourself this stupid young thing? Who is by the way in no way comparable to your wife at all! I am not the only person thinking this way. Quick do a poll with your surrounding friends!

All respect for C whom I have know for 3 years have been flushed down the drain to timbucktoo!

And J, speaking from a married woman's point of view, you selfish selfish girl (younger than me), who gave you the right to go and hurt others? What do you think would result from this affair? You think C will stay with you? C'mon, He can cheat with you he can cheat ON you.

Geddit? Yes, wake up little girl, there will be no happy ending.

C is just weak and using your body for his lust. You think you are old enough to handle this? Guess what all the people around you are secretly hating you right now. Yes, we are. I don't think I can ever be sincere in talking to you anymore. A polite nod and smile is all I can offer from now on to you. Both os which will be a very weak attempt on my part. In my eyes, you are nothing but a home wrecker. A told me to pretend when I see you both. Hubby told me not to be so obvious.

I can't be a poker face. Being poker face has never been my forte.

"Takes a deep breathe"

What has happened to the sanity of MARRIAGE? What happened to till death to we part? Maybe I am idealistic. Am I? No "WE" can part before death, but please part with each other before you start another relationship.

I told hubby last night. Please if you have fallen in love with another, at least have the courtesy to break off with me than go and start an affair with somebody.

Hubbby says he won' t and can't find another one like me. I told him, we do not know what happens 10 years, 20 years from now. But please be nice to me when you or IF you find somebody new. Hubby says it would not happen. I hope so too.


And now they are talking about divorce? Why? Talk it out? I suspect C is too much of an ego person to beg the forgiveness of his wife.

Any man in the same position reading this, a piece of advice, it takes a REAL STRONG man to BEG and GROVEL for the forgiveness of his wife for such a mistake. Only wimps back out and take the easy way out and then probably regard it.

Begging is nothing shameful to your spouse for mistakes made. Admit it and work things out. Be sincere.

I don't know. This sucks.

Reconcilation is very mportant. Why let something like this spoil more than 10 years of relationship?

God? Will my heart be big enough if it ever happens to me? Jesus.

Wow! I am still in shock. Can you tell?

I used to think ALL MEN ARE BASTARDS. Used to. Not anymore until last night. Now, Hubby actually thinks there is a certain degree that all men are bastards after hearing about C.

Gosh!

Patch back with my mother

Yup. Patch back with my mum already. Now we are friends again. and she is cooking fr me again :)

yeah! super

I love you mum!

2 more days to Standard Chartered Marathon

My knee right has been hurting for the pass 4 days! N recommended Bengay for relieve.

Damn Ex ah! $13.95 bucks. Tiger Balm only $2 plus. Bought Bengay anyway.

Worth every cent man. Was at Essential Brew with T and started rubbing my knee with it. T was hilarious."Waaaahhhh....the smell damn strong siah!"

Knee is almost back to normal now. 90% back in shape.

Will slow run tomorrow for an hour and see how.

I reject the pain in Jesus name!

Amen!

Dad, you're useless!

Dad,

You don't even talk to me infront of mum.
You only talk to me when Mum is asleep.
You cracked jokes with me the other night but only when mum was asleep.
I asked you a question tody and you can't even open your mouth to answer me?
I see mum spying at us in her room.
Are you really so caught in a dilemma?
Mum's your wife and I am your flesh and blood.
So why can't you be objective?
What did I do to you?
If only you 2 know my 2 months long of heartbreaks and hardships?
How much pain I have been through these couple of months.
I guess I am losing you both as much you are losing me.
My heart bleeds.
My tears stream freely.
I know what to do.
I am leaving soon.

I love you.

Argh! Tequila poisoning!

7am: Tummy hurts.
7.30am: Ignores tummy hurting. Is aware of gas forming in tummy.
7.45am: Sits up. Tries to burp. Gas, gas everywhere. Burps smells like tequila.
7.48am: Lies down.
7.49am: OUCH! Tummy rrrreaaaallly hurts!
7.55am: Goes to toilet. Induces vomiting process.
7.58am: Gross! Uses fingers to clean sink hole. Ewwww. Smells like tequila.
8am: Feels like farting. Also feels like something coming out from my ass.
8.01am: Sits on toilet bowl.
8.02am: Farts. And a wholeload of shit comes out! Feeling better.
8.10am: Goes back to sleep.
8.20am: Tummy HURTS still!Feels like shiting again. Softer stuff comes out.
8.30am: Physically drained. Lies down on bed.
Fast forward to 10.45am
10.45am: This time diarrhea. Tum tum shaking with fear.
10.50am: Feeling crappy.
11am: Calls, A, hubby to complain.
11.45am: Calls brother to bring back charcoal pills.
12pm: Farts and watery brown shit comes out. EEEEEEEEEEEEEWwwwwwwwwwwwww.
12.45pm: Charcoal pills arrive. Pop 2 pills. Gossips to J about last night's event.
1.45pm: Peaceful sleep.
4pm: Wakes up. Pop another 2 pills.
5.11pm: Felling much much better.

Now 5.12pm: Still being ignored by my mom. Cold war still on! Sigh.

Chonging with my Brother!

Woah! For the first time in HISTORY I chiong with my brother at Club Momo!

FWAH! I win liao. I feel damn cool man. After dinner with my friends at Hui Chui then go Club Momo. Somemore my brother knows the boss and got us a table. Still got somemore my brother paid for everything and open a bottle of Vodka. Weeeeeehhhhhh..hahhhaahahahh...

And because he is going overseas to work soon, which means me his ONE and ONLY FAVOURITE sister that he loves da most, he gave me the card to his bottle kept at Club Momo!

HAHAHAHAH....and he introduce me to his friend J who is the boss there and ask me to contact whenever I need a table or something.....hiccup!Opps, drank too much....

Not bad hor for a sister? This year he already gave me 488 bucks for my wedding and treat me to Black Eyed Peas concert and now pay for drinks for my friends and I and then give me a BOTTLE!

FWAHAHAHAHAHAH.......Me happy Liao!

Can tell I a bit high???

Hehheehehehehehehehehheheehe...

Night night!

It's over

Yes, yesterday was the last day of A's father's funeral.

I went with her family to Mandai for the cremation. Emotional, tiring experience.

I think it's finally over, the letting go of their father finally.

I pray that the family will find peace and relief and have many nights of deep sleep and sweet dreams.

Right hor, God?

Mum, you have not changed for the last 10 years.

Yesterday, my best friend's (A) father passed away. The news came as a shock. Only earlier in the morning around 10 plus A was smsing me that she did not go to work and her father was not doing very well. I was plannng to go over after work and bring ice cream to cheer her up.

I received from her another sms at 1.02pm. This time hr sms was very short. "Dad just passed away."

I was in shock and shaken by the news.I started tearing and literally shaking for 10 mins. I thought it might be sometime this month but not then. I was still planning to visit uncle and A.

I rushed to the wake around 5 plus after work. Hubby came around 8 and I told him I wanted to go home to change and come back again to accompany her. Hubby was very tired from work but he was like " ok!". "Are you going to wait for me and then send me back to A's place?" "Of cos! I just take a nap at your place and you take your time to change:)"

Went home told my parents A's father just passed away. Mum and dad were sympathtic. For mum it was for a while. I told I would be back later and she was like ok. It slipped from me that I was already at the wake and she was like

"Why are you going back there? It's bad luck and you don't go and kay poh. Got friends to make merry with right? Cannot go!"

"Mum A's father just passed away. Me not going to kaypoh! I just want to go there and support her I will be back later just a couple of hours."

"NO! I am your mother and you do what I say! Don't think you're married you can do what you want. If you waant to listen to me yu stay at home"

blahblahblahblah....it was ridiculous....i started crying in exasperation and telling her seriously at 26 I manage my own time, i can listen to her but she cannot CONTROL me. It's insane!

Hubby couldn't take it anymore and came ove put his hands around me and told my mum in his funny broken mandarin " She is only going to accompany her good friend"

WOAH! So MAN!

All hell broke loose my mother started screaming at him. Told him to shut up and keep out of it. Told him he was going to get it from her if he was to protect me.

I shoved hubby into my room and told him it's ok. It's my mother let me handle it.

I just told my mother I am going out not and I will return later. My mother told mt to go and never come back? Seriously I have ben "DISOWNED" and " CHASED OUT" by my mother so many times. Too many times, the effect is all gone.

"This is my house too and that is my room and I have the right to come home. And I am going out and coming back later to sleep in my room ok!?"

This reminds me of another situation 10 years back when I was 16 in Sec 4. A close friend attempted suicide and landed in hospital. I was already home from school in the afternoon and wanted to go and visit her. My friends were all there and I wanted to be there for her as well. Hey I spent entire holidays at her place swimming and bbqing ok? We were really close.

As usual at 16 you kinda have to ask mum for permission to go out. Told her what happened to my friend. Again as far as I remember she said" no" I asked "why?" And 5 mins later I got a slap from her.

Mum 10 years ago I did not go to my friend when she needed me because you shouted at me and slapped me. Why you did not allow me to go it's beyond my rationalisation.

10 years later you still do not allow me to go to be with my best friend's side? A and I have been friends since primary 1. And for goodness sake I love you mum but why do you make things so difficult sometimes?

10 years already and history repeats itself.

ok trying to see if I have completed my running goals for the week!

Keeping track of the kilometres I run

Ok monday ran 5.3km to Botanic Gardens (Done)

Today aka Wednesday ran 3km only on threadmill (loser man) (Done)

Plan to run 8km tomorrow morning (If I can wake up early enough) (Failed)

Friday 6km (Failed only ran 2km with hubby cos he pant like doggie after 1km)

Sunday 10km (Failed run only 8km but quite happy)

Aiyoh...how to run the marathon with me so slack?

Should have just signed up for the 10km instead! ( Agree with my previous statement again!)